It's who I am...Shy, Awkward, Anxious.

If you've only read my blog and never met me, you might picture me differently than who I really am. I try to portray a person of confidence and courage (not sure if I'm good at pretending or not...)..... But it's kinda a lie...

The real me? Shy......awkward.....anxious....

Some people that know me may call BS on this, but it's true.... The person I portray in public takes so much strength and my insides are in knots at social events.

I absolutely despise meeting new people. Despise it. I would be perfectly fine sitting with the people I know for a whole evening and not having to socialize with anyone new. That would just great! When I have to meet new people or get in a situation that makes me nervous, I start tripping over my words, don't finish my thoughts, and fidget....I sweat, my face turns red, and I can't make eye contact.....  That's the real me. A socially awkward mess. Even around family and close friends, I still find myself awkward.... The more I worry about my awkwardness, the more awkward I get.

I can type and text till the cows come home.... It's a way of hiding behind who I really am...




This is me....to a T...

*****Unfortunately, due to a new format, previous pins will no longer appear*****  These were awkward penguin pins... And they were good ones too :(









 

Help understand who I am??? As I read more and more of these "socially awkward penguin" pins.... I started wondering if I'm awkward because I'm considerate and respectful.

I fear saying the wrong thing.

I fear offending someone.

I fear making a fool of myself and changing someone's perception of me....

So... is it fear? OR is it the result of an amazing upbringing my two great parents that taught us to respect ourselves and others???

I'll leave that for you to decide but I'm going to believe it's the last one... either way.... Now you know me... I'm not a social butterfly... I'm a socially awkward wallflower...

Until next time...

Krista